sleeping too much hurts my head.

i have learned to hate breaks and vacations. i don't keep myself busy during these times - i just succumb myself to pure laziness. i hate how i always do this. i need something to do, always, or i just don't do anything.

i need to find my gym shoes and start running every day at the gym that is literally a 5-minute walk. i also need to go to costco soon and stock up on low-pricing food. i bought a crockpot and i don't even use it.

the image i have in my head for my character in the normal heart is someone who is scrawny and thin, and lacks muscle. i need to run constantly to get that achieved. and i know i always tell other people this, and tell myself this, but god damn i mean it this time

i will start tomorrow

i have always had self-esteem issues because of my weight and because of how it made me look. i want to be in my physical prime. if i don't get into it now, it will be 500 times harder in 5-10 years when my body composition makes it that way.

i won't be doing daily exercise blog posts, maybe do weekly. i'll take pictures for a before and after. i know it can be done. 

i need to find motivation, and just keep it constant.

die, laziness, die. 

- rm